Freedom from my narcasist mother

We are not supposed to be our mother’s friend so why was I confided in when she had great sex with her boyfriend? I was only 12 years old and had yet to even date. Hell I knew when they had sex as my sister and I slept in the same bed with them and had to listen to them having sex while her boyfriend got handsy with me. No wonder I have issues.

Mark my words freedom did not come easy. I am not fully free even though she is Dead and gone. I still hear her voice saying you are stupid and will never amount to anything. Can't even stay in one job long enough to do anything. Your sister and brother know how to keep a job. You are an idiot. If only i didn't agree. But that is a thought for another time.